Lyrics Light Of Some Kind

wish i didn't have this nervous laugh
wish i didn't say half the stuff i say
wish i could just learn to cover my tracks
guess i'm not concerned enough
about getting away with it

every time i try to hold my tongue
it slips like a fish from the line
they say if you're gonna play
you should learn how to play dumb
guess i can't bring myself
to waste your time

'cuz we both know what i've been doing
i've been intentionally bad at lying
and you're the only one i ever
let see thru me
and i hope you believe me
when i say i'm trying
i hope i never improve my game
i would rather have these things
weigh on my mind
'cuz at the end of this tunnel
of guilt and shame
there must be a light of some kind

musta blown a fuse or something
it was so dark in my mind
she came up to me with the sweetest face
and she was holding a light
of some kind
and i still think of you as my boyfriend
i don't think this is the end of the world
maybe you should follow
my example
and go meet yourself
a really nice girl

we both know what i've been doing
i've been intentionally bad at lying
and you're the only boy i ever
let see thru me
and i hope you believe me
when i say i'm trying
i hope i never improve my game
i would rather have these things
weigh on my mind
'cuz at the end of this tunnel
of guilt and shame
there must be a light of some kind

in the end the whole world
comes down to just a few people
for you it comes down to one
but nobody ever asked me
if i thought i could be
everything to someone
there's a crowd of people
harbored in every person
there are so many roles that we play
you've decided to love me for eternity
and i'm still deciding
who i want to be today

we both know what i've been doing
i've been intentionally bad at lying
and you're the only boy i ever
let see thru me
and i hope you believe me
when i say i'm trying
i hope i never improve my game
i would rather have this thing
weigh on my mind
'cuz at the end of this tunnel
of guilt and shame
there must be a light of some kind
give me a light of some kind
i want a light of some kind